.......It is still dark when I leave the building in the morning, there is ice on the windscreen and the car is freezing, until the heat kicks in.. But there is this new, lighter, clear
light starting to appear as I hit the M1 around 8am. It is the first hint of spring. The horses in my favourite field are still, staring in a dreamlike manner, into the future, it seems. I want to stop the car, and time, and all the tasks and duties that are piling up already - and go over to the far end of the fields to spend some time with the horses. I feel as if I have gotten to know them, after all, I have been passing them and their field twice a day for the past few months..
I am also getting work back in order, research work, I mean. Thinking work. Creating work, and getting determined to complete what I have been wasting time on for too long. Now it just has to happen. I must learn to find ways of saying 'no' at work without having to work in the evenings on silly admin stuff for the institution. I want free evenings, for breathing and thinking and getting my research completed. It is time to become self centred in this matter!